I've had this account for about two years. I used to blog all the time. Not sure what stopped me. Life I suppose. There's been times where I'm sure blogging would have helped me get through the struggles. And boy since I started this and stopped forever ago, there have been many struggles.
I was 26 when I stopped blogging. Single mother to my one year old, Zach. He is now a healthy 4 year old big boy. Well, he refers to himself as a big boy. He likes to remind me of it every time I try to dress him, or get him a drink, or even walk him down the street. He amazes me everyday with the things he has begun to take in. Some things that come out of his mouth, floor me, to say the least. He talks non stop at home. Around people he doesn't know very well though, he becomes shy. He is my little gift from God. I didn't get much out of my first marriage. It wasn't a happy one. But I did get the best little boy out of it.
Jason and I divorced, finally, in June of 2010. It was a marriage that never should have taken place. I'm not sure why it did. I guess because I thought I was in love. I was pregnant, but to me, that wasn't why I walked down the aisle. Jason was the one with the reservations that day. I was truly and honestly, happy. I should have taken a hint before we got married when he told my niece, Tara, in not so many words, how he wanted his cake and eat it too. Basically, he wanted to be married, and still mess around. Stupid me though, pregnant and hormonal, just wanted to do what I felt was right. And of course, I thought I loved him as well. Of course I did end up coming to my senses and although we are divorced and I am happily married a second time around, we remain great friends.
Speaking of being married a second time. . I am SO HAPPY now. Aaron and I met almost two years ago when I started working at JayC, our local grocery store. (I was actually with someone else, but we won't go there. He is crazy, and I don't wish to speak of that lunatic.) If you would have told me the day we met that I would have become his bride almost 2 years later, I would have laughed in your face. But, we got to know each other and a wonderful friendship grew. Then a little bit later, love. He is so amazing. Most of the men in my past, brought out the worst in me. Aaron brings out the best in me. He brings out the life in me. We were married on June 25th 2012. A beautiful Monday afternoon. I know, who marries on a Monday?! LOL well, we do. Because rather than spend thousands of dollars on a wedding, we just wanted to marry each other and didn't care how we did it. It wasn't important. The only thing important to us was spending the rest of our lives together. So that beautiful June afternoon, we took our vows and had our little reception at Ponderosa. I even let him talk me into a first dance to our song, "I won't give up" by Jason Mraz. One of the most romantic moments of my life :)) I grin ear to ear remembering it. SO this is my life now. A wonderful husband who would walk to the edge of the earth and back for me and a wonderful little boy who is very much in love with his mommy, and she with him. Hopefully soon, we will add another new addition to our little family. We may not have it all, but at least we have each other. It took me foreverrr to get to this place. I went through so much crap. But it was all worth it in the end.
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